this will never end

they waitlisted me.
so yeah, ill have to push it this term to end this dragging process forever.

no more countdown

Ok so i just learned a ridiculous thing today. Apparently B school is always late with their decisions. so yeah, no point in counting down anymore. let it come whenever it wants and im not going to think about it.
I'm less stressed out now, and I am very surprised with myself that I feel totally fine and not really affected by the lack of sleep.
nothing really exciting to say...
im just gonna leave with some quotes from O-sensei:

"Do no fail
To learn from
The pure voice of an
Ever-flowing mountain stream
Splashing over the rocks."

"Always Keep Your Body filled with light and heat. Fill yourself with the power of wisdom and enlightenment."

Cheers.

D-2

Ok I kind of skipped a day, but here it is, what happened yesterday.
I ended up not making it to class this morning. Yes. i was in big trouble. But then I found a way out. I'll be coming back from my cousin's wedding and go to the last 2 class days before thanksgiving break, and go to my friend's house for thanksgiving. everything worked out, now i just gotta just my flight ticket, and not miss anymore classes... Everything happened so fast, but i kind of also thought that I haven't had a chance to hang out with my friend this year, so maybe we could use this thanskgiving break to bond :P. She's like one of my only viet friends at Emory.
The rest of the day was just boring cause I was panicking that I was going to get an F in PE.
Then comes the time to go to Wicked. Indeed it was just A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. I sooo love the songs from that musical <3. Defying Gravity <3 I wouldn't mind coming back next year to watch it again (let's hope they will have it again)
The show ended really late, and when I came back i realized that yeah... i havent' really done any homework for tomorrow. so I ended up not sleeping, (still haven't seen the sunrise though, hmm, hurry up sun) So i am sorry if I am not making sense. I'm not a person who don't get sleep... like.. i NEED sleep... I wonder how im gonna function tomorrow... probably not well as we can already tell from now :P
I've been starving all night though... I really can't wait until i can go get some breakfast... wow this post has been so long and boring...
It seems so cold out there..... brrr.
Oh I'm in the study lounge btw. it's pretty nice and quiet here. done with homework... What should I do now...
anyways writing non-stop like this is a good way to kill stress. 2 more days, 2 more days and i'll find out.

D-3

A post a day keeps the stress away ^^ (ok that was lame)
Trying to keep myself less stressed out because this is going to be a tough week for me and I wish I had prepared myself sooner, like during the weekend. But I will be posting everyday a lil bit about what happened during the day until the end of this week, Friday, which is when I hear the decision from B-school.
Woke up today 10 minutes before my first class started... ran to class and was 5 minutes late. oh my, when am i going to stop waking up late like that..? French class was good as usual, ended our short story "Rene" that is kind of depressing...
B-calc was like usual: the teacher going too fast making me always having to catch up, got my homework back with a pretty bad grade... but still better than the person next to me O.O
Chinese was nice as usual ^^. Actually doing better on the daily quizzes now, hurray!
After lunch I went to see my French teacher for my paper. It's funny, she keeps speaking Frenglish :P
Finally free and rested for a while. Did Chinese homework, painted a little, and went to visit Mary in Clairmont. Afterwards, straight to volleyball.
Couldn't get my hits in today... well at the beginning I couldn't, but then it was better... ahhhhh... gotta practice... >_<.
And now I just did some more painting... I have 2 paintings due on wednesday... aaaah I'm not gonna have much sleep>___<. But I'll be thinking of posting them up once they are done ^^. or maybe not?
Tomorrow I will be having my first tennis class. hopefully i will be out of my bed by the time the class starts :P. NO. I MUST.
And really lookin forward to WICKED! I'm going to see it with my roomie tomorrow <3. That will be pretty awesome :P I know like all the songs from that musical! hihi.
Anyways, have a good night!!! I'll write more tomorrow, hopefully with more interesting things, probably mostly about Wicked. hahaha
Cheers ;)

what's happening...

Lately it seems like my mind is somewhere else.
last week, on Wednesday, I lost my hoodie. I just lost it when i was walking to class, it slipped from my bag. seems almost impossible, but it did happen
And yesterday, I forgot to bring with me my phone, my keys, and my ipod, one after another each time i went out of my room. all three are things that I usually always have with me. Don't know what happened there either.
And last night's weird dream that included my friends and my stories from my high school.
What's going on?
I need to bring it back together as the week of hell starts now.
Friday 24th is the decisive day.

Realization

first thought: bright light. Never seen the sun shine so brightly on Emory.

>>> "focus on things that you are good at, do not wander off" <<<
>>> "polish the mirror" <<<

Fragment of an Eye

Only you I want to see, still and for always
On rainy days I remember this single wish

In your heart I forgot
A fragment of myself
Is it still there?

Sleeping inside a closed book
Pandora's jewels called memories
Holding my breath, falteringly
Forever I was watching
"Here in the rain"

Yesterday I lamented the scattered petals
Seems little by little I am forgetting you

I am a fragment of you
That only wishes to return to your heart

My eyes that have fragmented
Are quartz broken in the shape of the crescent moon
You alone fill them with light
Forever I am waiting
"Here in the rain"


I only want to see you......

Sleeping inside a closed book
Pandora's jewels called memories
Holding my breath, falteringly
Forever I was watching

My eyes that have fragmented
Are quartz broken in the shape of the crescent moon
You alone fill them with light
Forever I am waiting
"Here in the rain"
Searching for the fragment

Re-start

Hm... just decided to start my blog over again because I didn't update for like a year. well, i only had 2 posts in here anyways, haha.
Although blogs don't get visited as often anymore, i felt like i needed some place to write down and share my thoughts :)